Saturday, November 28, 2009

Thinkin' and Wishin'

It's fascinating how frightening and exciting at the same time that it is getting closer to time. We haven't set a date yet. We're still paying down credit cards and getting ourselves all prepared. It's nice knowing that we're preparing. It's nice knowing that the time will come even if we aren't sure precisely when the time is.

It's also scary. I wonder some days whether I'll be a good mom. Okay, a lot of days. Sometimes I'm certain. Sometimes I know I'll do just fine, that I can take care of someone else and still keep my sanity. Then some days I'm run ragged and wonder how I can do work and keeping everything sane at home AND have a baby, not to mention how to pay for things like childcare. It scares me how much that costs!

But we'll figure it out. Somehow, we'll figure it out.